Like a Glove

The picture above is me 6 years ago at a Mardi Gras ball. Not the typical debutant, but I sure did know how to have a good time! That dress hasn't seen the light of day since that night...

It never gets easy. It is a constant do this and do that! Make sure to remember to eat this and don't eat that. You better do that before you do that! Remembering to eat every 2 hours is not as easy as you would think. My grocery bill has shot out the roof. Grocery shopping seems to be my new activity. I am always making a list of things we need and I am always shocked to see the food going so fast. The cost and the constant eating really is worth it. I don't binge eat anymore and I am feeling so healthy and energized. I have lost 23 pounds in 4 months. The most exciting thing is that I have kept it off.

Did anyone notice how much Kim K was eating during those 8 weeks of marriage. I literally felt her pain. I almost wanted to eat with her because I could feel her misery. Each episode for those eight weeks she kept getting bigger and bigger. I felt so bad for her. That is what happens when we don't deal with our issues and we suppress our pain with food. It made me feel good to know that I was not the only one who did that but even more that I stopped doing that all together. I am sure it has been hard on my family and friends because I have never been more of an open book. I basically say everything I am feeling. I cry a lot, I vent a lot, I laugh a lot, and I MOVE a lot. I am constantly doing new and adventurous activities and finally living life. I am waking up with a smile and ready to conquer the day. No regrets anymore. No wishing I had done this or putting off saying that. No more waking up with anxiety putting off having to deal with another unresolved issue. This, my friend is called living life.

Next week is Mardi Gras and I can't afford new clothes. I have accumulated beautiful clothes over the last 10 years from going to college, making my debut and getting married. These clothes have not seen the light of day in SEVEN years and could really use a drink.

I got them all out yesterday of the dark coat closet in the hallway. I have been ignoring them for years knowing that I probably would never wear them again. I took a deep breath, pulled on my girdle and had Mike fasten my long line bra (you know the corset long strapless moulon rouge type bra??) The last time that thing had been worn was on my wedding day.

Standing there all squeezed in tight, I glanced behind me to check myself out in the mirror. "Hmmmm", I thought.

I picked up my couture green silk one shoulder dress that has ZERO spandex in it and can only work if it truly slides on like a glove. As I zipped up the side I turned and face the mirror. It was perfect. I could not believe my eyes. The last, and only, time I had ever worn this emerald masterpiece was 7 years ago to a debutant party for my dear friend Lee Smith, God rest her soul.

Everything after that fit, fit and fit again! It was so much fun and so much better than shopping for new things. I have 30 pounds to go before I reach my final goal and I am ready to really jump back into this. I have been maintaining and doing great but I am now ready to keep on trucking and really finish this. I will post pics of me in the green dress after I wear it next week.

I am going to try to blog a little bit every day. I'm sick of these huge breaks! I will do better. I think it will really help me to be more consistent with my blogs.