Mathmatician

Every 30 days at boot camp we have a fit score. Yesterday we ran the mile and I am happy to announce that my time went from 12.38 to 10.28!! I shaved over 2 minutes off! Do you know what that means? I am getting stronger. I am getting lighter. I am breaking free from the chains. I am getting closer to my goal. Another HUGE announcement is that I pulled out an old pair old black pants that I have not worn in 2 years! I am down to a size 14. I am so happy. I am now 3 pounds away to where I was 2 years ago. Let me recap this for ya...Ok so I was 160 pounds in middle school. I was 180 pounds in high school. I got up to 205 pounds freshman year in college which was the all time high...so I thought. Senior year of college I was 165 pounds. This 165 pounds was the best I have ever looked and felt in my life. It is my goal to get there again. Continuing on...After graduating college I SLOWLY started gaining...I met Mike at 170. I married him at 190. I quickly went up to 213 during our first year of marriage. Two years into the marriage I was 234 when I got pregnant! The night I went into labor with Carter I was exactly 250lbs. So I only gained 16 pounds my entire pregnancy! What happened here was I actually worked out with a trainer and ate the healthiest I have ever eaten. I wanted a healthy baby and I was scared I would gain 60-80 pounds like some women I know...being so heavy already, this thought terrified me!! So I decided not to gain fat during my pregnancy. Six weeks after having Carter I was 232 pounds. I was 226 pounds when I started this blog. Today I weighed in at 216 pounds. I'm not sure what led me to go into all the numbers in today's blog but I did! Sometimes it's good to crunch the numbers! My next short term goal is to get to 205.

By seeing these numbers on this time line...I am now seeing that I'm not that much of a rollercoaster dieter as I thought I was. I am actually just a steady gainer who just so happend to reach my goal weight ONE time in my life. That ONE time in my life was destroyed by complete ignorance. Why did I think I could just do whatever I wanted now that I was at my goal weight? That is what I now know going into round two of getting to my goal. The key is that once I get there...THAT is when the TRUE test begins! THAT is when I must continue exercising, eating light, blogging, and just keeping my eyes OPEN to the fact that I must continue working just to keep it off! This time, I'm ready.